Boy am I excited...

Well I only have a few minutes, but below are some photos of our new shelves and my new work bench. I am super excited about my work bench. My next task is to order pegs and 6S my work area. '6S' refers to a term often used in lean manufacturing, basically meaning to organize in a very smart way.

Also, here are a couple funny pictures of Emma in the bath making a new pouty face. We taught her to make that face when she wanted to put some of Ali's lip gloss on.

Thanks again Mom and Dad for the Christmas present!

Emma loves strawberry shortcake...

CHRISTMAS UPDATE!

Well, Christmas is over. We had a lot of fun visiting our families, and we had tons of fun watching Emma go crazy over her presents. She couldn't keep her hands of of the presents, and tried opening any she could get her hands on.
We are grateful for this time of year, for the spirit of giving, and especially grateful for the gift of the Atonement. We spent Christmas Eve reading the nativity story, that is until Emma threw up. We went home, and she threw up again. She woke up feeling better, and Emma was an angel the whole day. Ali and i got some food storage stuff, some shelves for our garage, some 72 hr kits, a picture of Christ, and money! Thanks to all of our family and friends who got us things this year. Below are some pictures:

Emma's present pile.

Here is the kitchen we got Emma. She also got a bunch of fake food to go with it. She loves making everybody food.

Here is a picture of Emma's car.

Emma's Easel and art kit below:

Emma's rocking chair.

Emma and daddy. I look drunk, though i am just tired.

Emma sleeping in the car on the way to Heber.

Venting...TMI

I just had to get this off my chest. Yes, I'm well aware that I'm putting my personal thoughts and feelings on the internet for everyone to see....but I need to say this, it's eating me alive.

I guess I will start from the beginning. The reason Neil and I can't get pregnant is because of me. I have extremely irregular menstral cycles. Seriously, I can go for 7 months without a period. So I never know when I'm ovulating or anything, our doctor acutally told me that even if I do have my period it doesn't mean I ovulated, since my menstral cycles are so irregular the lining in my uterus just keeps building up until it starts to break down and I have my period. He guessed that I ovulate once, maybe twice a year. What clomid does is makes you ovulate, but it has some bad side effects that makes the uterus a not too nice of environment for an egg. So it still takes longer to get pregnant on Clomid than it does for normal women. The down side to all of this is you can only be on Clomid for 3-6 months because of the bad side effects. Then the doctor usually tries different, more expensive and dangerous drugs.

Well my first month of Clomid is officially over. I was so sure I would get pregnant the first time. I knew I can get pregnant and carry a pregnancy to term, the only thing is it's difficult for me to get pregnant. But I was so so so sure this would all work out and I would find out I was pregnant right around Christmas and everything would be just fine...well it didn't work out like that. Even though everyone keeps telling me that I could still be pregnant because I haven't started my period, I just know I'm not pregnant (and Brandi I took another pregnancy test tonight after dinner and it was yet another negative).

Everything's just getting so difficult to deal with. I cry everynight, I can't go to church because everyone's either pregnant or just had a baby; everytime I hear about someone I know that's pregnant it's like another stab to the heart, especially if they had a baby after I had Emma. I don't know why this is happening to me, why Heavenly Father decides to give babies to people who don't want one, but those of us who are desperate to have one and would do anything to have another child of God don't get to have this privelage. It hurts eveyday. I'm constantly thinking about it, I can never get it off my mind no matter how hard I try. I can't keep going on like this, it's getting too difficult.

I feel so alone, none of my family has ever had infertility problems and they are constantly pressuring me to have a another baby, they don't understand that I'm doing everything in my power to have another baby. It's so hard to go through life feeling so alone, I've never felt like this before. To not know what to do next, to feel like the whole world is going on and leaving you in the dust. I look at Emma and it brings tears to my eyes. She deserves a little brother or sister, she loves babies, every time she sees a baby she runs up to it and sits there in awe talking and playing with them. I feel like I'm cheating her out of life.

Anyway, sorry if this post creeps you guys out. I just need to get these things off my chest every now and then. I will hopefully get throught this stage. I'm calling my doctor tomorrow to figure out the next step in all of this, they seem to have all the answers which is nice.

It snowed!

Well, below are some pictures of last weeks happenings. Emma loved playing in the "ice" (as she calls it) Actually, the macn n cheese picture is from last night, but other than that they're from the weekend.
Christmas is coming along fine. We have got all of our shopping done. We did a lot of it online this year. it was pretty easy.
I finished my last final yesterday, and Ali will be done with hers on saturday. It will be good to have a little break.
Anyways, nothing else is really going on, just getting excited about christmas.

Emma eating Mac n' Cheese at 1:30 in the a.m.-

Emma inside from playing in the snow-

Emma watching yo gabba gabba (her favorite show)

Emma swinging in the park.



Emma licking the snow off her face-

All she did was eat the snow-

Getting Emma ready to go outside-

Chomping the snow for the first time-

Temple Square Trip

Today Ali, Emma and I went to see the lights at Temple Square with Dan, Brandi and Lukas. We had a lot of fun. We started out by eating at Sweet Tomatoes. It was good. We then drove a few blocks to the trax station (in Sandy), and took the trax to Temple Square. Emma and Lukas loved the ride. When we got there, we pushed our way through the busy crowd, and looked at all the lights. We had fun, and the kids liked it a lot. Below are some photos from the trip.

Lukas & Emma on trax

Oh Christmas Tree!

Well, over the weekend we acquired a christmas tree. It was a very fun process.

part 1

First, Ali and I grew up with different style of trees, so it was very difficlut to come to an agreement. None the less, we found one that Ali liked, and we got it.

When we got it home, we put it in a stand Ali got from her Grandma's house. We then started decorating it, and Emma was a really good helper.

When we finished, we were glad. The house looked ready for christmas, and most importantly, it smelled like it.

part 2

Well, later that night, about midnight, the tree started tipping. we realized that the stand we had wouldnt work. So, i had to go and find a stand at the springville walmart. All would have been fine, except for the fact that it took them an hour to tell me that they didnt have a tree stand.

I made the mistake of asking them to find another store that had one. thirty five minutes later they informed me that payson had one. The thing that killed me was that i could have driven to payson, orem and then back to springville, in the time it took the walmart employees to help me. So, needless to say, i got home at three in the AM. At that point, I had to lift the already decorated tree, and have ali pull out the new slide, and slip the new one in.

I am thinking about a fake tree next year.

we will upoad some pictures from our camera shortly. until then, have a great day.

***ONLY 24 MORE DAYS TIL CHRISTMAS***