So it's been about a month since I last updated this blog. Easter came and left and it was wonderful to have my two beautiful girls with us. It was a blast, but of course I didn't take any pictures, I'm lame like that. Emma got a "real camera" as she calls it. She loves taking pictures so we decided to get her her own camera so she wouldn't break ours, and she of course loves it. She also got her Easter dress and a few other things along with candy, and of course Bomps and Grandma Sue spoiled her to death and she got a lot of fun things from them. Claire got a glow worm and a rattle along with an Easter dress and accessories to go along with it. She didn't get any candy though, imagine that. And Bomps and Grandma Sue spoiled her as well and she got a lot of cute clothes and a few toys. All in all it was a blast and we couldn't have asked it to be any better.
The last few weeks I have had a very unhappy baby. And saying that is being extremely nice. Little Claire has been crying non-stop, you can't make her happy no matter how hard you try. As you can imagine this has taken its toll on me. I would go to bed to a screaming baby and wake up to a screaming baby. I'm not used to this, Emma was the picture perfect baby. Finally we tried Mylicon drops thinking maybe she had colic and this would help. It did seem to help, but not entirely, she was still screaming her blood curdling scream, just not so much, but still enough to make it extremely hard on me. Finally yesterday I gave in and tried soy formula per request of my sister and mom, thinking maybe she's lactose intolerant. And would you believe it, I felt like I had a totally different baby, she was actually cooing and smiling and just being content, I hadn't experienced that before with her. So today I called our doctor to see if there is something that I can to do continue to breast feed. The doctor's office had me call the dietitian and I talked to her and explained Claire's symptoms and she told me what I was dreading to hear, that Claire is lactose intolerant. I was expecting to hear that, but I really, really didn't want to. She said if I wanted to continue to breast feed then I would need to cut out all dairy out of my diet, along with whey. I wanted to cry. Of course I want to continue to breast feed because it's the best thing for my little girl and of course I want the best for her, but after talking to Neil and my mom and really thinking about everything I would have to cut out of my diet, for about a year or until she stopped breast feeding, I realized that it was pretty much impossible for me. It was a very difficult decision for me and tears were shed. But I'm looking forward to having a happy baby around.
So life has been extremely interesting these last few weeks, and to top it off it's finals week and so the stress keeps building and building. But after Wednesday it will all hopefully go away. All I need to do it look at my girls and I realize how extremely lucky and blessed I am to have these two beauties in my life.
