Man I can't believe it's already April. I've really been slacking in the blogging department and I'm sorry for that. Right now I should be writing a research paper but I thought to myself, "No! I need to update everyone on our lives before I can even think about working on my paper!" So you all should feel extremely special.
March was a whirlwind of a month. I guess I will start from the beginning. It started with yet another visit to the fertility doctor...yes what fun. We talked about my options and I have to get what's called a hysterosalpingogram (sp), it's where the will inject dye into my uterus to see if my fallopian tubes are blocked of if there's scarring. If that comes back clear then I will start taking a new pill called Femara, it's actually a pill for breast cancer, but it's been proven to help with fertility, and along with Femara my doctor strongly suggested that I start artificial insemination....it was just a suggestion so Neil and I are seriously talking about it, it's about $340 each time...BLAH! But that's it for now.
Our month then continued with what we do everyday, homework has started to pile up thanks to the end of the semester and to my wonderful ability to procrastinate....I call it an ability others would call it a disability...you decide for yourself.
Lately I've been going through some really challening times, not just with infertility, but with life in general and I can't tell you how many times I've found myself on my knees crying to my Heavenly Father asking for comfort and guidance. I felt so alone at times, but it seems when I'm in the pit of it all, if I just pray, I've felt Christ's arms around me, letting me know that I'm not alone in all of this, he's been where I am and I can get through this. His love for me is so real and so undeniable I often wonder how people just don't get it. And when I look at Emma I see the light of Christ in her eyes. She's always been so in tune with everything. She loves my grandma Barker (she has Alzheimer's and isn't very nice, only to Emma). She will sit on her lap (which she never does with anyone else, only grandma) and let her rock her back and forth while singing. She loves giving everyone kisses, she loves everyone...I can see why we need to be as little children, not just full of faith, but full of love, hope, learning, everything. I hope to one day be as wonderful as Emma is.
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Ali I am so sorry that your going through a rough time. I do know how challenging fertility problems are. I think that has been my number one challenge in my life. I also belive that while your going through those things that other things are more sensitive and challenging as well. It makes other things harder. Hang in there and know if you need anything or even just a friend to call or even just come over. We would love to help you guys in anyway we can.
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